Wednesday, October 14, 2009

bloggity blooger!

so i contemplated making this blog public and my anon self non-anon... for an entire 13 1/2 minutes or so.

I figured ..its not like i write on it a lot and its not like anyone reads it a lot.

those 13 1/2 minutes or so (most of which were spent net surfing and random thoughts thinking) were then followed by an urge to write something on the said rarely written-on/rarely read blog .... and for some reason the topics that came to mind were 1. drugs and 2. sex (not 3. rock and roll) in that order.

Now its not that I have an issue sharing out loud my opinion and the drugs and the sex. For if you know me at all, (which thankfully you dont) you probably also know that I'm not exactly a wallflower keep-my-opinions-to-my-self kind of girl (sometimes much to theBoy's distress). However despite the 'i'll give a daymn when i die' attitude (melodramatic arnt i), I feel that the world at large need not be privy to my loud-mouthed opionions or even personal details (should i decide to be so generous) on such subjects, with my face as postergirl of all free and colourful speech.

I mean it would be fine if youre a friend and I know you, and it'd also be fine if youre a stranger and I dont......but! it starts getting messy if I dont really know you but you sort of do know me, and then I find out that I do know you through a someone who we both kindof sortof know really well.... And on finding that out, I find out (or dont find out) that the things you primarily know abt me are 1. my drug preferences (natural/herbal over chemical) and 2. sex positions of my choice (topic for another day perhaps)... through my blog .... whichhhh now that we both kinda sorta know each other ...is just creepy and stalkerish for you to be reading ... or given that I'm the one who's putting out there for you to read is just attention-whorish of me ...maybe.

Its just not a self analytical spiral which im ready to go down just yet ...

Maybe if I had more friends who blogged out loud (i.e. non-anonly) ... I might be comfortable with letting my freak flag fly out loud as well .... but I don't.

Plus the fact I myself (after being a part of the blogsphere for over 4 years) still dont know what to do with the creepy fact that I too (stalkerishly perhaps) read the blogs of people i kindof sortof know in real life ..I mean really what do you do with that ... go up to them and say: 'Hey. so you know I read your blog..great stuff ...ohh and btw too bad abt the herpes ... he really should have warned you'. I mean really?!!?
(shhhhh. hmmm i guess thats why we'll just keep pretending that doesnt happen. really. it doesnt..)

soo therefore and thereby.... the non anon blog - out of the question for now!

...and if there be anyone who has an objections to this, speak now, or forever hold your peace. (or comment later... either way)

5 comments:

uglyduckling91 said...

I do not have herpes! ='(

mehreenkasana said...

I've been blogging for a few years by now and I am very vocal about my stance(s) on various issues. I don't think posting anonymously really matters because it's the identity that confirms more than the opinion. You can say whatever you want behind the veil of anonymity because that doesn't require balls; All you need is an internet connection, an pseudo-ID and your opinion. Presto! Anonymous flaming/opining/et all.

But it's the real deal when you use your very own identity and, then, put your stance forth. That's when people take you seriously whether it's opposition or support. They know -who's- behind the screen when they read the work.

About people stalking your blog: Man, that happens so often now, I've just given up on them. So should you. It's irritating and disgusting but that's how phantom readers are.

BTW: I love your blog-theme. Very original. :]

life of pi said...

hahahah so funny.i think apart from one person i know no one else knows that i blog. i think there is always a risk going completely non-anon because you have to then start filtering a lot of what you are thinking and then that totally negates the point of blogging

SAMMb said...

ugduck: good to know ... (you dont sounds very convincing though)

mehreen: thanks for the comment, but i honestly dont think i have a "stance" to put forth. no i have random ramblings or musings even... hmmm i dunno i think its still a double edged sword ...like the 'phenomnemon of celebrity' i just dont know if im there yet.

pi: exactly! its the filtering ... as it is i dont know what the hell to write abt on most days ... now if i was to filter on top of that ....it wld be 'welcome to the blog of no words'

mehreenkasana said...

I wouldn't call it 'celebrity status'. You don't need one to opine. All you need is a few brain cells and I'm certain you have those. :)

Anyway. Stick to anon-ity and yay, you're free of trouble. Easy way out, I guess.