Im back!

last post published on Nov 15, 2009.

Wow. thats 99 days... hmmm and i thought it had been only a few weeks .... oh well what can I say: "such is life.... move on" (which you prob have, from this inactive blog anyway)

So in the morning, on my subway ride to work, I thought to myself how unfortunate it was that I had been neglecting my very own space in the great grand blogosphere. The way I see it, if you have a space you should utilise it... shame on me for being so daymn wasteful. And to make matters worse, I have also noticed in a serious dip in my writing/thinking processes.

I thought about this during the remaining my 2 1/3 mins of my subway ride and I've come to the conclusion that it seems I've developed a CCP (CutCopyPaste) / JFGI (Just Fucking Google It) brain ...and that is NOT a good thing. Especially since I have recently acquired a position in the working world (not quite a full-time paying job but defiantly a step up from the unemployed bum life I was submerging into) I will need to use the tiny little brain cells which seem to have shrunken as a result of neglect and misuse (I blame CCP/JFGI syndrome). "Revive little brain cells!!!! COME BACK TO ME!!!"

So I thought was ready to dive right back into the blogging pool, I thought I had thoughts for reflection and blog-worthy topics in mind, but now (4 days of half a post sitting in the drafts cupboard later) I think its obvious that I should wade around in the shallow end for a while.

So instead here are unnecessary updates on my life:

1. I want a yellow room in my house
2. I should/want/need to catch up on my HIMYM
3. Im trying to get (back) into the social media think but i dont know where to find the discipline for it.
4. I LOVELOVE mc. dreamy and mc. steamy and wish I could be Adison except in my version she/I would get to have both of them with no repercussions .... maybe even together ...hmmm
5. I tend to make these declarations of my LOVELOVE out loud.
6. Needless to say this pisses off the hubby no end who then threatened to cut off my greys anatomy watching privileges.... oops. ahem.
7. Yes I watch greys anatomy for the delicious men ....so sue me.
8. That wasnt an update ...more of just random randomness
9. I'v forgotten how to blog .... help. (I blame CCP/JFGI Syndrome)

I'm back betchess!!! ;)

a Website for its Music ... (and a good cause too im sure)

http://www.maje-paris.fr/#/en/mecenat

yummy martinis, sexy music and purple thoughts swirling around my head...

dont do me any favours

I dont like asking you

to do anything for me.

to be there for me.

to take an interest in things that interest me.

I dont like asking.

(for favours) from you.

or anyone.

And then I get sad when you

dont do something for me.

when youre not there for me.

when you dont take an interest in things that interest me.

(and yes i realize how fucked up that is)

505

I'm going back to 505,
If its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive,
In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side,
With your hands between your thighs,

Stop and wait a sec,
Oh when you look at me like that my darling,
What did you expect,
I probably still adore you with you hand around my neck,
Or I did last time I checked,

Not shy of a spark,
A knife twists at the thought that I should fall short of the mark,
Frightened by the bite though its no harsher than the bark,
Middle of adventure, such a perfect place to start,

I'm going back to 505,
If its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive,
In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side,
With your hands between your thighs,

But I crumble completely when you cry,
It seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye,
Im always just about to go and spoil a suprise,
Take my hands off of your eyes too soon,

I'm going back to 505,
If its a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive,
In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side,
With your hands between your thighs and a smile!

[Artic Monkeys]

Birthdays are good for you. Statistics show that people who have the most live the longest!

[ transfer: from a comment to my blog ]

you have 77 comments ... so dont know if you will get this far ... but felt the need to write still.... having celelbrated my own 27th last week and all.

Its so silly this birthday nonsense.

I mean you know its just one day, you know youre older so it doesnt/(shouldnt) matter, you know your friends and family love you either way, and its no longer like back in highschool when they didnt have the pressure of work and busy lives etc. and a barrage of people had nothing better to do than to go out of their way makes you feel all warm and fuzzy and special.

Call it hallmark/hollywood/bollywood brainwashing ...we just expect it all and more!

theBoy is a loving caring husbby who is crazy abt me, but try as he will, the poor thing will just never live up to the expectations i have of being made to 'feel all warm and fuzzy and special' (special means retarded).

I dont know what it is but the crazy expectations of mine (ours) just dont align with the way 'theBoy's are programmed to think abt such occasions...(i mention this because such occasions bring the most pressure on them).

so what i think is that its just that as we get older we just tend to lean towards insecurity and attempt to grab at remenants of a semblance of a feeling of togetherness that we once (at a younger more naive age) felt on such occasions.

And we just have to face it.... its just aint gonna to happen anymore alice!

So hello birthday, fuck you for making me older birthday, and goodbye birthday.

:)

i dreamt that i smoked up from a giant sheesha and got mad stoned. how weird.